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here are some things i have realised, primarily certain phrases that really mean other things:

'are you alright?' - 'i know you're not alright, clearly something is wrong, and i want to know what it is on an interest level, not because i want to help'

'i need some space' - 'there is a space you usually occupy near me, and i would like that space to be empty now because i do not want you to be near me'

'how are you?' - 'i want to talk about myself, and what with the tennis-like back and forth quality of most conversation, by asking you to talk about yourself i will then logically have to reciprocate with talking about myself'

'is there anything i can do?' - 'i feel bad that you feeling bad is putting a dampener on things so i'll offer to do something superficial for you that will help me feel better, but not necessarily you'

'i'll call you later' - 'i will not call you later'


my head is actually so sore right now that i am angry about it being sore so that makes it sorer and me angrier so on so forth ow ow ow ow owwwwwwww